Wow. I have a hard time coming up with words to express how I'm feeling about all of this. I am simply amazed by the Lord's grace and power in this whole experience, and this is only the beginning.
Here's the timeline of the Mission Year process so far. It's pretty incredible.
Freshman Year: First discovered Mission Year. Thought about it a lot, then dismissed it until "later".
November 30, 2011 aka "later": Remembered Mission Year and started looking at the website again. Started considering applying "just to see what would happen".
Christmas Break: Started thinking more seriously about applying. Intended to apply by the end of break.
January 3, 2012 (Tuesday): Had a conversation with Ashley. Decided to apply by the end of the week (break)....I applied by the end of the day. :)
January 4, 2012 (Wednesday): Received e-mail from Mission Year saying that after they heard from my references I would be set up with an interviewer.
January 9, 2012 (Monday): Received e-mail from Mission Year to set up my interview.
January 10, 2012 (Tuesday): Set interview date and time.
January 12, 2012 (Thursday): Interview. I was told I would hear about my acceptance in 2-3 weeks.
January 18, 2012 (Wednesday): ACCEPTED. SURPRISE!
Boom. That's just incredible to me. I feel like I'm a fairly patient person, but this quick turnaround and surprising speed has been a huge blessing, especially during the beginning of this semester! Wow, wow, wow. Here's the first part of the e-mail I got today. The rest was info about the attached paperwork and exciting things for me to look over before committing.
"Congratulations Cara!
Mission Year is happy to extend to you an offer to join one of our teams throughout the country. Your desire to serve others and experience discipleship has been evident throughout your admissions process, and we would welcome you on our team!
We will now wait to receive your Commitment Form as you prayerfully consider joining Mission Year..."
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
Sunday, January 15, 2012
Love so amazing, so divine
Have I mentioned recently how good it is to be back in Kirksville? My heart is overwhelmingly full here. I am more able to see and feel the Lord in His love, grace, and power. But it's not just the happy feelings. This morning during communion I faced genuine conviction that I haven't felt in months. I felt dirty and ashamed as I sat naked before the Lord, but in that place I was reminded of the power of Christ on a cross. I was reminded of the righteousness that has somehow been imputed to me. I can never comprehend it, but I feel the weight of its truth. I am amazed.
"Therefore, just as sin entered the world through one man, and death through sin, and in this way death came to all people, because all sinned--
To be sure, sin was in the world before the law was given, but sin is not charged against anyone's account where there is no law. Nevertheless, death reigned from the time of Adam to the time of Moses, even over those who did not sin by breaking a command, as did Adam, who is a pattern of the one to come.
But the gift is not like the trespass. For if the many died by the trespass of the one man, how much more did God's grace and the gift that came by the grace of the one man, Jesus Christ, overflow to the many! Nor can the gift of God be compared with the result of one man's sin: The judgment followed one sin and brought condemnation, but the gift followed many trespasses and brought justification. For if, by the trespass of the one man, death reigned through that one man, how much more will those who receive God's abundant provision of grace and of the gift of righteousness reign in life through the one man, Jesus Christ!
Consequently, just as one trespass resulted in condemnation for all people, so also one righteous act resulted in justification and life for all people. For just as through the disobedience of the one man the many were made sinners, so also through the obedience of the one man the many will be made righteous.
The law was brought in so that the trespass might increase. But where sin increased, grace increased all the more, so that, just as sin reigned in death, so also grace might reign through righteousness to bring eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord."
[Romans 5:12-21]
Dang. This is so good. I am learning daily what it means to follow Christ. To be saved by his blood. To be seen as blameless and righteous before a Holy God. How is this possible? How and why was the God of the universe able and willing to come to earth to die for humanity? We are disgusting and lowly creatures. Yet he came near, and he became one of us. What great love is this...
"My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you. Greater love has no one than this: to lay down one's life for one's friends. You are my friends if you do what I command. I no longer call you servants, because a servant does not know his master's business. Instead, I have called you friends, for everything that I learned from my Father I have made known to you. You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you so that you might go and bear fruit--fruit that will last--and so that whatever you ask in my name the Father will give you. This is my command: Love each other."
[John 15: 12-17]
"Therefore, just as sin entered the world through one man, and death through sin, and in this way death came to all people, because all sinned--
To be sure, sin was in the world before the law was given, but sin is not charged against anyone's account where there is no law. Nevertheless, death reigned from the time of Adam to the time of Moses, even over those who did not sin by breaking a command, as did Adam, who is a pattern of the one to come.
But the gift is not like the trespass. For if the many died by the trespass of the one man, how much more did God's grace and the gift that came by the grace of the one man, Jesus Christ, overflow to the many! Nor can the gift of God be compared with the result of one man's sin: The judgment followed one sin and brought condemnation, but the gift followed many trespasses and brought justification. For if, by the trespass of the one man, death reigned through that one man, how much more will those who receive God's abundant provision of grace and of the gift of righteousness reign in life through the one man, Jesus Christ!
Consequently, just as one trespass resulted in condemnation for all people, so also one righteous act resulted in justification and life for all people. For just as through the disobedience of the one man the many were made sinners, so also through the obedience of the one man the many will be made righteous.
The law was brought in so that the trespass might increase. But where sin increased, grace increased all the more, so that, just as sin reigned in death, so also grace might reign through righteousness to bring eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord."
[Romans 5:12-21]
Dang. This is so good. I am learning daily what it means to follow Christ. To be saved by his blood. To be seen as blameless and righteous before a Holy God. How is this possible? How and why was the God of the universe able and willing to come to earth to die for humanity? We are disgusting and lowly creatures. Yet he came near, and he became one of us. What great love is this...
"My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you. Greater love has no one than this: to lay down one's life for one's friends. You are my friends if you do what I command. I no longer call you servants, because a servant does not know his master's business. Instead, I have called you friends, for everything that I learned from my Father I have made known to you. You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you so that you might go and bear fruit--fruit that will last--and so that whatever you ask in my name the Father will give you. This is my command: Love each other."
[John 15: 12-17]
Thursday, January 12, 2012
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
Blog > Bedtime
Yeah, it's the first week of the semester and I have given myself a bedtime. I guess more importantly, I have given myself a set waking time every day. Well, it's my second night in Kirksville and I'm already reminded that life here is sometimes too full for strict schedules and bedtimes. That being said, I'd still like to keep this short (ha), because I love my bed and my sleep very much. But I have so much to say in this moment. We'll see what happens.
First of all, I have another exciting Mission Year update :)
I heard from Sarah again this afternoon, setting me up with an interviewer! I e-mailed her a list of possible times and dates when I could have an hour-long interview over the phone or Skype this week, and I am hoping to hear back with a set time tomorrow! I also learned today that I should hear in about two weeks after my interview whether or not I get accepted. And then it's full speed ahead if I commit. This is all happening so quickly, which I honestly think is a huge blessing. If things continue at this rate, I anticipate knowing something significant about my future in less than a month.
**It's Tuesday morning, and I just checked my e-mail, and I now have a phone interview with a girl named Kate Thursday at 5:15 pm! Bah!**
Probably the coolest part of this update is that the Bible has been rocking my world recently. :) I'm so glad to be able to say that. I've still been reading about Abraham (what an interesting walk he walked with the Lord). I've also been reading a lot of Jesus' words. I had this thought earlier, and it put a huge smile on my face: I'm falling in love with Jesus again, but I'm also learning what it means to fear him. Both of these things are a huge deal for me, so the fact that they're happening simultaneously is really fantastic. God sees me and hears my cries, and he is quick to respond. I am loved.
I might add more about these Jesus words tomorrow. I'm sleepy, and I'm six minutes out from my postponed bedtime. :) Thanks for reading and encouraging. I hope my ramblings might somehow be an encouragement to whoever reads them.
PS. Yesterday while I was driving I realized that my love for sunsets and all things beautiful might make me a reckless driver. I'd say it's worth it.
First of all, I have another exciting Mission Year update :)
I heard from Sarah again this afternoon, setting me up with an interviewer! I e-mailed her a list of possible times and dates when I could have an hour-long interview over the phone or Skype this week, and I am hoping to hear back with a set time tomorrow! I also learned today that I should hear in about two weeks after my interview whether or not I get accepted. And then it's full speed ahead if I commit. This is all happening so quickly, which I honestly think is a huge blessing. If things continue at this rate, I anticipate knowing something significant about my future in less than a month.
**It's Tuesday morning, and I just checked my e-mail, and I now have a phone interview with a girl named Kate Thursday at 5:15 pm! Bah!**
Probably the coolest part of this update is that the Bible has been rocking my world recently. :) I'm so glad to be able to say that. I've still been reading about Abraham (what an interesting walk he walked with the Lord). I've also been reading a lot of Jesus' words. I had this thought earlier, and it put a huge smile on my face: I'm falling in love with Jesus again, but I'm also learning what it means to fear him. Both of these things are a huge deal for me, so the fact that they're happening simultaneously is really fantastic. God sees me and hears my cries, and he is quick to respond. I am loved.
I might add more about these Jesus words tomorrow. I'm sleepy, and I'm six minutes out from my postponed bedtime. :) Thanks for reading and encouraging. I hope my ramblings might somehow be an encouragement to whoever reads them.
PS. Yesterday while I was driving I realized that my love for sunsets and all things beautiful might make me a reckless driver. I'd say it's worth it.
Saturday, January 7, 2012
Holy heartache
Tonight hurts. There's a lot going on in my head and my heart right now, and my eyes are being opened to some things about myself and my past that I haven't wanted to acknowledge. But here I am. It's a good time for me to be returning to Kirksville. That place has really become my home. It's the place where I am comfortable to be myself and to grow into the woman I am meant to be. It's beautiful. I'm ready to be home.
Please pray for me right now. I'm trying to stand firm on who I know I am, but it's especially hard right now. It means letting go of a lot of things, and facing a lot of things I've been avoiding.
Wholly, holy heartache. But I am trusting in the Lord's steadfast love.
Please pray for me right now. I'm trying to stand firm on who I know I am, but it's especially hard right now. It means letting go of a lot of things, and facing a lot of things I've been avoiding.
Wholly, holy heartache. But I am trusting in the Lord's steadfast love.
Abram
We've been talking about Genesis for a while now in CCF, and we were just getting into the goodness of Abram's life and his awesome faith in God's promises. But I've been reading these things again this week as I'm starting out on my venture to read the Bible in a year, and Abram is really standing out to me in new ways. I thought I'd share.
This is one of the first major glimpses we get of God's very personal revelation of Himself to any of His people. Yet this is just a hint of what is to come. This is also one of the first times that I am noticing God making very consistent promises to Abram (I'd like to note here that I'm very wary of the word promise in relation to God. I'm not sure how our understanding of a promise fits with God's nature. Rather, there is this consistent idea of a covenant throughout scripture. As a personal note, this is something I want to study in more depth soon.). Along with this, I see Abram presenting honest questions and concerns before the Lord.
"O Lord GOD, what will you give me, for I continue childless, and the heir of my house is Eliezer of Damascus?"
"Behold, you have given me no offspring, and a member of my household will be my heir."
"O Lord GOD, how am I to know that I shall possess it [the land that God has brought him to]?"
In every instance, God has a response. Not an explanation of the how or when, but a reassurance that these things will come to pass. And Abram believed the LORD.
This is one of the first major glimpses we get of God's very personal revelation of Himself to any of His people. Yet this is just a hint of what is to come. This is also one of the first times that I am noticing God making very consistent promises to Abram (I'd like to note here that I'm very wary of the word promise in relation to God. I'm not sure how our understanding of a promise fits with God's nature. Rather, there is this consistent idea of a covenant throughout scripture. As a personal note, this is something I want to study in more depth soon.). Along with this, I see Abram presenting honest questions and concerns before the Lord.
"O Lord GOD, what will you give me, for I continue childless, and the heir of my house is Eliezer of Damascus?"
"Behold, you have given me no offspring, and a member of my household will be my heir."
"O Lord GOD, how am I to know that I shall possess it [the land that God has brought him to]?"
In every instance, God has a response. Not an explanation of the how or when, but a reassurance that these things will come to pass. And Abram believed the LORD.
Friday, January 6, 2012
Joy abundant
As I was driving home tonight from dinner with a dear friend, I realized just how much I have to be excited about and grateful for in my life right now (okay, okay, also all the time; I just happen to be especially aware of it presently). Seriously, friends, this life that we're all sharing right now is so beautiful. This God that we may or may not be trying to understand, love, and follow is so beautiful. Seriously.
I feel like I need to give a quick run-down of what has happened since my last significant post (hah, last night was kind of a joke; I was crashing on Nyquil), only because I'm so excited about it!
I turned in all of my application stuff for Mission Year on Tuesday night. It was really, really refreshing and encouraging for me to sit and answer a bunch of essay questions about my relationship with God and my motives for wanting to pursue Mission Year. It was exactly what I needed that evening, especially in preparation for whatever may come in the near future. I learned a lot about myself and was reminded a lot about God in those few hours that I sat in that coffee shop and wrote about myself and my heart.
Wednesday morning, as soon as I could have possibly hoped, I already had a confirmation e-mail from Sarah at Mission Year, informing me they had received my application! It was the most exciting e-mail I've received in a while. She also told me that as soon as they hear from my two references (I know this will be Monday at the latest), she will set me up with someone for either a phone or Skype interview. So I guess this is really happening. As I was talking with a friend the other day, I was reminded that even taking the risk to follow God down this path is a huge step. Even if this whole thing doesn't pan out, I am at least so excited to be taking the risk and following where I feel the Lord leading. This is a new experience, especially in the past 12 months. Wow, God is so faithful to bring restoration and healing. I stand in awe.
Another awesome and exciting thing about life lately: there are suddenly an abundance of opportunities to read and study the Word with dear friends. This is something that has been lagging in my life for quite a while. Anyone who is reading this probably knows that I have had an interesting (ha, that's a very simple way to put it) past year in my walk with God. Various aspects have gradually been rekindled, and joy has slowly come back into these disciplines. But a genuine desire for the Word has been minimal. Amazingly, then, over break I have come across the opportunity to start reading through Romans with Allison, to start memorizing part of 1 John 4 with Sophia, and to challenge and be challenged by Ashley to read through the Bible in a year. Whew. Seriously, this all came about in the past three weeks. And I am so excited. If I want to understand God more clearly, I need to be reading the words that He's given us. It just makes sense.
For freedom Christ has set us free; stand firm, therefore, and do not submit again to a yoke of slavery.
[Galatians 5:1]
In this day, in this moment, in this breath, I am rejoicing in the freedom that I have in Christ.
I feel like I need to give a quick run-down of what has happened since my last significant post (hah, last night was kind of a joke; I was crashing on Nyquil), only because I'm so excited about it!
I turned in all of my application stuff for Mission Year on Tuesday night. It was really, really refreshing and encouraging for me to sit and answer a bunch of essay questions about my relationship with God and my motives for wanting to pursue Mission Year. It was exactly what I needed that evening, especially in preparation for whatever may come in the near future. I learned a lot about myself and was reminded a lot about God in those few hours that I sat in that coffee shop and wrote about myself and my heart.
Wednesday morning, as soon as I could have possibly hoped, I already had a confirmation e-mail from Sarah at Mission Year, informing me they had received my application! It was the most exciting e-mail I've received in a while. She also told me that as soon as they hear from my two references (I know this will be Monday at the latest), she will set me up with someone for either a phone or Skype interview. So I guess this is really happening. As I was talking with a friend the other day, I was reminded that even taking the risk to follow God down this path is a huge step. Even if this whole thing doesn't pan out, I am at least so excited to be taking the risk and following where I feel the Lord leading. This is a new experience, especially in the past 12 months. Wow, God is so faithful to bring restoration and healing. I stand in awe.
Another awesome and exciting thing about life lately: there are suddenly an abundance of opportunities to read and study the Word with dear friends. This is something that has been lagging in my life for quite a while. Anyone who is reading this probably knows that I have had an interesting (ha, that's a very simple way to put it) past year in my walk with God. Various aspects have gradually been rekindled, and joy has slowly come back into these disciplines. But a genuine desire for the Word has been minimal. Amazingly, then, over break I have come across the opportunity to start reading through Romans with Allison, to start memorizing part of 1 John 4 with Sophia, and to challenge and be challenged by Ashley to read through the Bible in a year. Whew. Seriously, this all came about in the past three weeks. And I am so excited. If I want to understand God more clearly, I need to be reading the words that He's given us. It just makes sense.
For freedom Christ has set us free; stand firm, therefore, and do not submit again to a yoke of slavery.
[Galatians 5:1]
In this day, in this moment, in this breath, I am rejoicing in the freedom that I have in Christ.
Giggles
Since part of the aim for this blog is to reflect on lovely things, today seems like a good one to consider.
...too bad I just remembered I took Nyquil over an hour ago, which could explain why I'm so quickly crashing. There's also the fact that it's nearly 2:30 am. Maybe tomorrow I will reflect on today.
I have a lot to say, but my brain is already sleeping. The room is starting to spin.
Until tomorrow...
...too bad I just remembered I took Nyquil over an hour ago, which could explain why I'm so quickly crashing. There's also the fact that it's nearly 2:30 am. Maybe tomorrow I will reflect on today.
I have a lot to say, but my brain is already sleeping. The room is starting to spin.
Until tomorrow...
Wednesday, January 4, 2012
Self-control
Whew, this is a hard topic. This is a struggle that I have really had to come to terms with lately. I am so, so, so bad at self-control. It's not just that I lack self-control in one area; this comes up over and over again. In my words, my thoughts, my eating habits, my interactions with other people. I don't know if I am just indulgent or insensitive...no, I don't think I'm either of those things. I think I am easily caught up in the rush of a moment, whether for good or bad, and I somehow lose my self-control. I am later filled with regret or shame, and I know that is not from the Lord. I don't know what to do about this struggle but to continue to ask God to give me greater self-control. I could also ask for accountability in some of these areas, but I think most of these instances occur when I am by myself or outside of a Christian environment, which does make a lot of sense.
This is another thing that has been on my heart a lot over the past several months: I want (need) to learn to stand on my own in strength and boldness in the Lord without the constant support or approval of people and community around me. Not that I want to separate myself from these people, but I want to figure out how to be independently stable. I want to be able to be okay on my own. I think I have come a long way with this (evidenced by the fact that I'm sitting in my bedroom in my parents' house writing about my walk with the Lord; I'm doing much better), but there is still a lot of work to be done. C'est la vie.
"For I do not understand my own actions. For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate. Now if I do what I do not want, I agree with the law, that it is good. So now it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells within me. For I know that nothing good dwells in me, that is, in my flesh. For I have the desire to do what is right, but not the ability to carry it out. For I do not do the good I want, but the evil I do not want is what I keep on doing. Now if I do what I do not want, it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells within me.
So I find it to be a law that when I want to do right, evil lies close at hand. For I delight in the law of God, in my inner being, but I see in my members another law waging war against the law of my mind and making me captive to the law of sin that dwells in my members. Wretched man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of death? Thanks be to God through Jesus Christ our Lord! So then, I myself serve the law of God with my mind, but with my flesh I serve the law of sin."
[Romans 7:15-25]
This is another thing that has been on my heart a lot over the past several months: I want (need) to learn to stand on my own in strength and boldness in the Lord without the constant support or approval of people and community around me. Not that I want to separate myself from these people, but I want to figure out how to be independently stable. I want to be able to be okay on my own. I think I have come a long way with this (evidenced by the fact that I'm sitting in my bedroom in my parents' house writing about my walk with the Lord; I'm doing much better), but there is still a lot of work to be done. C'est la vie.
"For I do not understand my own actions. For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate. Now if I do what I do not want, I agree with the law, that it is good. So now it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells within me. For I know that nothing good dwells in me, that is, in my flesh. For I have the desire to do what is right, but not the ability to carry it out. For I do not do the good I want, but the evil I do not want is what I keep on doing. Now if I do what I do not want, it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells within me.
So I find it to be a law that when I want to do right, evil lies close at hand. For I delight in the law of God, in my inner being, but I see in my members another law waging war against the law of my mind and making me captive to the law of sin that dwells in my members. Wretched man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of death? Thanks be to God through Jesus Christ our Lord! So then, I myself serve the law of God with my mind, but with my flesh I serve the law of sin."
[Romans 7:15-25]
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
Coffee shop revelations
Today I have spent several hours sitting in public places talking to a dear friend. On the Border, The Whistle Stop, and now Starbucks by myself.
I love sitting and watching people. Airports are some of my favorite places because of the amazing variety of people and experiences that exist. People are coming and going from who knows where, and there is just an endless world of possible stories and circumstances. It's unbelievably fascinating to me. I also love airports for the potential for adventure and travel that they hold. You can walk into that place and step onto a giant contraption that will carry you around the world. I love flying. I love traveling. I love adventure. And I love people.
And coffee shops. The people, the smells, the tastes, and the conversations. I really don't consider myself to be a super creeper, but I occasionally overhear the greatest things. Like I just discovered that one of the guys working here worked at Taco Bell for four years during high school, and he often came home smelling like rotten rotisserie chicken. Charming, right? :)
Anyway. I'm really writing this because I find a certain amount of peace and freedom when I come to a place like this and sit by myself. It's a feeling that leads me to want to write and think and open my heart up to the possibilities of life. So it seemed like an appropriate time to add to this wittle baby blog. :)
Today as I was talking with my friend Ashley about life and all of the possibilities that lie in front of me, I decided a few things about this week. I am going to apply for Mission Year by the end of the week. A lot of my Truman friends might not know about this, but it's something I've been thinking about on-and-off since freshman year. I gave you the link if you want to look into it more. I'd love any feedback on it, but it's something I feel pretty confident about, at least that I want to apply and see what happens. I'm graduating in four months and two days, and I don't know what my life looks like beyond that. The idea of going somewhere to serve and love people and grow in my walk with the Lord is the most appealing thing I can possibly think of right now. It would be so good for me, especially fresh out of college with the whole world at my fingertips. I need a bit of direction and support.
My heart is full, and my eyes are bright. I am full of hope and joy and excitement about life. I feel passionate and alive. I want to make the most of every day, to grow into the woman I was created to be. I want to become fully Cara Nicole. Who's with me?
I love sitting and watching people. Airports are some of my favorite places because of the amazing variety of people and experiences that exist. People are coming and going from who knows where, and there is just an endless world of possible stories and circumstances. It's unbelievably fascinating to me. I also love airports for the potential for adventure and travel that they hold. You can walk into that place and step onto a giant contraption that will carry you around the world. I love flying. I love traveling. I love adventure. And I love people.
And coffee shops. The people, the smells, the tastes, and the conversations. I really don't consider myself to be a super creeper, but I occasionally overhear the greatest things. Like I just discovered that one of the guys working here worked at Taco Bell for four years during high school, and he often came home smelling like rotten rotisserie chicken. Charming, right? :)
Anyway. I'm really writing this because I find a certain amount of peace and freedom when I come to a place like this and sit by myself. It's a feeling that leads me to want to write and think and open my heart up to the possibilities of life. So it seemed like an appropriate time to add to this wittle baby blog. :)
Today as I was talking with my friend Ashley about life and all of the possibilities that lie in front of me, I decided a few things about this week. I am going to apply for Mission Year by the end of the week. A lot of my Truman friends might not know about this, but it's something I've been thinking about on-and-off since freshman year. I gave you the link if you want to look into it more. I'd love any feedback on it, but it's something I feel pretty confident about, at least that I want to apply and see what happens. I'm graduating in four months and two days, and I don't know what my life looks like beyond that. The idea of going somewhere to serve and love people and grow in my walk with the Lord is the most appealing thing I can possibly think of right now. It would be so good for me, especially fresh out of college with the whole world at my fingertips. I need a bit of direction and support.
My heart is full, and my eyes are bright. I am full of hope and joy and excitement about life. I feel passionate and alive. I want to make the most of every day, to grow into the woman I was created to be. I want to become fully Cara Nicole. Who's with me?
A window to my heart
So here I am, finally posting on my own public blog. This seems like a small accomplishment when I've been furiously posting on my private blog for over a year and a half. This new place seems foreign and insignificant. It is not the comfortable, friendly and familiar place I've grown to love. But I'm hoping it can become another place, similar but different. I don't know who will read this, if I ever share it with the world, but I hope that my life can be a lesson and an encouragement to others. Shoot, even outside of this blog, that's what I hope for my life. At least in part.
I guess I have this idea that blogs need to be written to an audience, but I really don't want this to feel that way. I want this to be a place for my heart to frolic and roam free, to explore and dance and vent and whatever else it needs or desires to do. It just so happens that people might watch that experience and even join in. And I guess that's an okay thing.
I want this to be a record of my journey. I am living a life full of pursuits and dreams and adventures, and I want to keep track of it all. I want this to be a place of thought, reflection, and ideas. I want this to be a place where I can explore life and all of its loveliness.
I guess I have this idea that blogs need to be written to an audience, but I really don't want this to feel that way. I want this to be a place for my heart to frolic and roam free, to explore and dance and vent and whatever else it needs or desires to do. It just so happens that people might watch that experience and even join in. And I guess that's an okay thing.
I want this to be a record of my journey. I am living a life full of pursuits and dreams and adventures, and I want to keep track of it all. I want this to be a place of thought, reflection, and ideas. I want this to be a place where I can explore life and all of its loveliness.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)